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[09 Dec 2004|05:13pm] |
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ahh the only reason that i love it when it rains in richmond is it's funny to watch people walking around with busted umbrellas (like i was today) and it's also amusing to see umbrellas in the trash or on the sidewalks as evidence that people were so fed up they gave up and threw the unreliable thing away.
i was fed up with my umbrella but i'm holding on to it.
it was hilarious as i was walking down harrison street, passing the coffee shop my umbrella inverted itself and i didnt realize this until i saw people laughing.
HAHA i had to laugh myslf. People, as do i, find busted umbrellas amusing.
hehe...i feel so, (despite the fact that i'm either getting sick or i'm just hung over) inspired today. I downloaded some songs ...a few were by the arcade fire and goddamn they are good. They've put me into a really great mood today. I was listening to them as i was walking to class and their songs make me want to stop and take in all that is around me. I noticed that today was a really beautiful day, even if it was raining. Their music is just soooo ...uplifting and inspiring...i wanna paint and write and share my good mood with all.
they sound like a combination of the walkmen, bright eyes and interpol....so excellent.
on my walk to class and back to home i saw khang on both trips...heh it was funny we kept running into each other. on the way back home i got a little sad ...just thinking...but when i got home i listened...and i'm still currently listening to the arcade fire and my sadness has disapated....i'm all good again.
yay its practically the weekend ...just one more class to go to and a portfolio to organize and this never ending week is ova.
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| the past has a funny way of sneaking up on you... |
[29 Nov 2004|08:20pm] |
just the mention of freshman year in that last post brought back someone who affected it very much so...
so who of all people just IMed me a few minutes ago...none other than marco. wow i was beginning to think he was dead, not only from the fact that we never talk anymore but that fact that he is a marine and was supposed to deploy to iraq.
no, he is alive and not too well i suppose, i mean he's good but he is working hard in a desert marine base in california and is supposedly in charge of a lot of people depending on the day. he was suppose to go to fallujah in august but had to testify in a court martial and i guess his departure date has been postponed...perhaps indefinitely.
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[29 Nov 2004|08:01pm] |
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i need to dye my hair i think...it's been about 6 months, and thats the longest i think i've gone without coloring these last few years. i think i'll just stick with a dark brown and move on from there. maybe i'll bring the brilliant reds from freshman year back.
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[29 Nov 2004|06:01pm] |
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two things....well maybe three things just occurred to me now:
1. what if a car came crashing into my bedroom and killed me instantly. (i thought of this after hearing the sound of screetching brakes right outside of my apartment...an accident might have occurred but i'm choosing to ignore it at this moment.)
2. sonic youth fucking rules....every song...brilliant! (i was just listening to "teen age riot" off of daydream nation)
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3. tonight was nice, and i think it will be okay...i will be okay. I wanted so badly to see him, and i did, and it was fine. we can be friends again and go back to the way it was, that is, if thats what he wants and feels.
last night i thought that i wouldnt be able to sleep and i don't think sleep has been all that easy these last few days, unless i'm extremely exhausted because of the emotional stress. but i think tonight will be just fine...hopefully break the cycle.
my eyes are getting worse, or maybe it's my contacts ( i do need new ones) but that's going to have to wait until the end of december, when i go back home.
well anyway, enough of the rambling...today is/was monday, and monday was a good day. My classes were okay; we fortunatly didn't do too much and there isn't that much homework. I'm almost done with my jacket; about another week and it should be complete. its due the 13th, so i should have plenty of time. i draped those dreaded curved darts...who the fuck invented curved darts (?) i don't know. it took a good hour and a half to complete the front today and i still have the back to do. well luckily draping is the hardest part and the sewing should be a breeze. that bodice is due the 8th...so again, plenty of time to complete it. later in the evening i went to plan 9 with khang; he brought the unicorns cd and it's alright...i think i could get into after a few listens. we went to kroger after that and got groceries; just a small amount for me since i'm on a budget. heh i got sausages because i was craving them. HAh, sausages...big, raw, ...sometimes, so hot, they pulsate...i mean ..what?!!...anyway...heh that was 90% of our conversation tonight; sausage talk. oh i love it! anyway...thats basically it...but i'll keep everyone posted if anything interesting comes later in the night.
p.s. tostinos is on sale 10 for 10...don't get the sausage...i did and it was gross...or maybe i just didnt heat it in the oven long enough...oh well
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[28 Nov 2004|02:11am] |
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p.s. i rearranged my room tonight...it looks nice and bigger
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[28 Nov 2004|02:00am] |
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first off...Fuck Nick and fuck all the bullshit...i'm so over him and i'm not going to let myself talk to him for quite some time. It's been a week since the incident and i am forever sorry that i put myself in that position to let him do that to me and for me to stupidly respond back...i wish it never happened and i guess thats all that i can say because i've said all i could about it to those that are deeply affected by it.
Although i no longer have a boyfriend (not from that, he claims) at least i still have a friend. I would never ever try to jeopardize that (or again).
i still miss those arms wrapped around me in the middle of the night and the little black haired-head poking through my comforter in the morning. I enjoyed so much of it with you....all the little things
ms. albert misses her sweet, little bobby
even anna nicole lookalike misses her 80-year old, "you make me feel 40 again" husband
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Thanksgiving snoozefest with cranberry sauce....
Thanksgiving...wow the most fun ever....hah hardly, it was incredibly boring. I was stuck with my grandparents (both of my parents went out of town) and don't get me wrong, they are great, but wow that was a lot of them for almost 4 days straight. I guess i would have liked my stay much better had i a) brought a book b) had more money (all i could afford to spend was $7) c) had a car and d) rented some movies instead of catching the middle of a decent movie on satellite ...oh yeah, and e) had my brother not been such a huge pain in the ass.
The highlight of the vacation was seeing niki and having a good three hour conversation with her at silver diner in Tyson's Corner. She really inspired me during the conversation; i need to work harder; i need to form lasting connections, or just connections of any kind; and i need more creativity in my life. I'm going to finish out this semester working as hard as i can and doing the best that i can. I'm going to have to sacrifice my social life for a few weeks and divide my time between the two jobs in my life: school and work. I desperately need money. I couldn't sleep last night, due to the 5 cups of coffee and my racing brain thinking about "what the hell am i going to do about christmas and rent and bills and saving for trips and paying back meghan." I'm gonna go insane....or i need to prioritize...and set aside savings accounts for everything i need to save my money for. I wish i could ask my parents for rent money but my mom is busy dealing with my lazy, no job, broke ass brother and my dad ...well...i dunno. I'm kinda scared to ask my dad for some reason...like he'll only loan me the money or he'll say "your mother is the one who is helping you through college not me." I know my dad won't leave me in the dust but ....i don't know...perhaps i'll ask him.
well i guess those are the thoughts i'll leave with tonight ...my brain hurts and i'm having trouble writing this entry, partly because all i've been doing this weekend was thinking and pondering and trying to escape by thinking of things other than being stuck in a train or in a house with grandparents
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[19 Nov 2004|01:05am] |
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- Current Clothes: a black lace slip dress
- Current Mood: comfortable
- Current Music: "Push It" by Salt n' Pepa
- Current Hair: straight and down
- current smell: american eagle's "aura" or whatever is left of it on my body at this hour
- Current thing I ought to be doing: cleaning my room or watching a movie with my boyfriend (who is taking his sweet time to get over here.)
- Current Desktop Picture: blue background with light blue swirly things (its the generic desktop and i want to change it soon)
- Current Favorite Band: probably le tigre because they are the last band i saw in concert and they were AWESOME
- Current Book: i wish i was reading one now...but i think i'll start Girl with a Pearl Earring soon
- Current CD[s] in CD Player: le tigre's "feminist sweepstakes"
- Current DVD in your DVD player: 21 Grams (supposed to be watching it now)
- Current Color Of Toenails: a pale pink
- Current Refreshment: cherry coke
- Current Worry: getting all my homework done this weekend without waiting till the last minute to do everything
LAST PERSON...
- You Touched: khang
- You Talked to: khang online and on the phone
- You Hugged: khang
- You Instant messaged: hahaha khang, yet again
- You Yelled At: hmm...i can't remember, i try not to yell at people ...just when i'm by myself about people or things that annoy me
- You Kissed: khang
FAVORITE...
- Foods: indian (chicken tekka misala) and greek/italian foods
- Drink: gin and tonic or a cape cod
- Color: kelly green
- Album: ooo..hmm...maybe
- Shoes: chucks i guess are my favorites because they are classic, comfortable and also can go with practically anything
- Candy: peppermint patties or peanut m&m's
- Animal: cats, but i also love dogs too
- Movie: A Little Princess (the modern one--i love that movie!)
- Song:
HAVE YOU EVER...
- Been kissed? yes
- How many people have you kissed? a few...i suppose somewhere around ten
- Done Drugs? a little
- Been on stage? unfortunately...i was forced by my parents to join this community acting camp one summer in 9th grade...it sucked because a) i was one of the oldest people there, everyone else was in 6th grade b) it ruined my summer because i had to wake up early everyday and c) i hate performing in front of crowds especially when i'm foced to
- Dumped Someone? yes...and they needed to be too
- Gotten in a car accident? ive been in a car while one happened, just fender benders though
- Watched "Punky Brewster"? no
- Been in love? perhaps
FAVORITE...
Shampoo? garnier fruitis or patene (when on sale)
Toothpaste? colgate
Soap? dove or lever 2000
Type of soup? tomato
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
- Cried? yes
- Helped someone? on advice, i suppose
- Bought something? yes
- Gotten sick? i am sick
- Gone to the movies? was going to but i heard that it sucked (alexander), so we decided not to
- Gone out for dinner? no
- Said "I love you"? yes, to my mom
- Written a real letter? nope
- Moved on? uh...no
- Talked to an ex? no
- Missed an ex? wondered...not missed
- Had a serious talk? yes, with khang, and i cried
- Missed someone? niki
- Hugged someone? yes
- Fought with your parents? nope
- Fought with a friend? nope
DO YOU...
- Wear eye shadow? yes, that's my favorite part of makeup
- Put on a "front"? i dont think so
- Kiss on the first date? depends
- Have a crush on someone? i suppose...but its more than a crush
- Eat with your mouth open? no
- How did you spend last summer? working, hanging out with friends and co-workers, thrifting, shopping, going to va beach to see dmb with niki, going to the obx with my dad and brothers, moving two times, dancing, partying, getting wasted, and getting my heart broken for a second time ...ahh it was a fun summer...no, actually all in all it was a pretty good summer, and it was the first time i didnt go back home for the summer
- When's the last time you showered? at 1:20 pm
- Are you lonely? at times, but right now, i'm not
- Are you happy? mostly
- Are you wearing pajamas? not at the moment
- Are you talking to someone online? kinda
- What is your astrological sign? libra
- What are you listening to/watching right now? the stills
- What time is it? now its 6:00 pm, because this survey is so long and i had to save it and come back to it later
-->y o u .
[x] Name: stephanie
[x] Nicknames: steph, pookie
[x] Screen name: SOrange487
[x] Sex: female
[x] Birthday: october 4th
[x] Height: 5 8
[x] Hair color: medium brown with sun-streaked highlights that look brassy and reddish now
[x] Is your hair long or short: a little past shoulder length
[x] Eye color: grey blue
[x] City born in: fairfax
[x] Location now: richmond
[x] Siblings: yes, three younger brothers
[x] Parents married/divorced: divorced
[x] Who are your closest friends: niki, tessa, khang, and alissa
[x] Who makes you laugh the most?: khang and tessa is a close second..and then niki...silly ol' nicole
[x] Who knows the most about you?: hmm, besides my mom...well she doesnt know everything, i'd say any of my closest friends
--> c r u s h i n . . .
[x] Pre-School: that was a blur...but i know i liked this one boy with blond hair and glasses, i think his name was adam
[x] Kindergarten: uh...i dont remember
[x] 1st Grade: maybe ross
[x] 2nd Grade: brenden or peter
[x] 3rd Grade: this bad kid joey (hehe)
[x] 4th Grade: i know i liked someone, maybe it was danny cidone, my bestfriend's (at the time) younger brother
[x] 5th Grade:brenden (again)
[x] 6th Grade: i forget...maybe bill temple (hahahaha)
[x] 7th Grade: oh too many
[x] 8th Grade: matt buccerelli...or jj lenke
[x] 9th grade: uhhh...
[x] 10th grade: ethan appleby
[x] 11th grade: i really forget...i might have not had one
[x] 12th grade: james a little...oh yeah and brent
[x] Boy/girl friend status: khang...but things are ....on hiaitus right now ....until he thinks things out, but we are still hanging out everyday
--> o t h e r .
[x] Do you have a job: yes, i'm a server at the galaxy diner in carytown
[x] What are you scared of: ending up alone or dying young without accomplishing anything, and failure
[x] Most interesting thing you've done this summer: make out with a lot of boys hahaha
[x] What store do you shop at the most: target probably or urban artifacts
[x] Have you ever done any drugs: a little but barely any
[x] Do you collect anything: music (cds) and hopefully art when i can afford it
[x] Are you a ditz: i hope not
--> f a v o r i t e s .
[x] Day of the week: thursday or friday
[x] Thing in your room: computer (eMac)
[x] Cousin: i dont have very many, but i guess andrew or natalie
[x] Ice cream: mint chocolate chip
[x] Movie(s) of all time: sixteen candles and forrest gump
[x] Hangout: anywhere with cool people
[x] Pizza topping: cheese or mushroom
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[17 Sep 2004|01:46am] |
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Nick called me on Tuesday night (9/14) to hang out ...i couldnt because of homework
Also, Taryen's party was okay...I didnt expect Nick to #1 Hug me when he first got there #2 Tell Courtney that he really "respected me" and thought that i gave him good advice and #3 Hug me again and kiss me on my cheek when he left ....weird.
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so for all those that are following my entries (which is no one but myself) heh...lots of things have happened since the last entry. For instance, Nick and I are no longer ...I suppose we "officially" called it off last week (last Thursday) but as far as we (and mostly he i guess, although I had my reservations) we were done a few weeks before that. Its just that he wasnt calling me or returning my calls for 2 weeks until he got his phone "fixed." (total bullshit if you ask me...i mean it was broken but he had other ways he could have called me ...like payphone, etc.) Well anyway, so we talked on Thursday night (he called/recorded a message for me randomly on Wednesday morning saying that he was sorry, and that he wanted to talk to me but he'd understand if i didnt want to ever talk to his ass again. Then he said "have a nice day and i guess i'll see you at Taryen's party on Saturday." ) So thinking about it, (a lot) I decided to call him the following night so we wouldnt have altercations on Saturday at the party. He answered (surpisingly) and apologized again right off the bat. I didnt say it was "okay" (heh i have a tendency to do that a lot when in most cases its not alright or "okay") but anyway, he said that he was surprised that i called him back, he didnt think i was. And I followed, "I wasnt. But I didnt want there to be any problems or friction on Saturday, with it being Taryen's birthday." he said that he wouldnt intend on there being friction but was impressed (i'm sure, that i was thinking about others than myself [himself].) He mentioned that he wanted me to know that there was nothing that was wrong with me or there was nothing that i did that made him come to this conclusion of discontinuing our "_(fill in the blank)__" ...i followed with "i know there is nothing wrong with me and I dont feel bad or wrong for myself" and he goes "good, good." So further more we talk, probably a good 15-20 minutes and he wants us to be "friends." I ask him if he could truely be my friend? Could he "commit" to calling me every once and a while and hang out with me? He said that he could (we'll see about this...i'm not going to hold my breath (for too long).) I told him even if we didnt remain or tried to be friends that he shouldnt avoid/ignore me or treat me like just a girl he slept with, because chances are I'll be seeing him around a lot because we share a lot of the same friends. he agreed. We talked about his commitment issues next and there seems to be a pattern, that after about a month, maybe less he becomes anxious almost nervous/fearful(?) and decides to end the relationship or the 'messing around" (which more so its been with him.) He's "deathly" afraid of commitment he claims and thinks about the end of the realtionship way before it even really begins and backs away like a little pussy boy. I told him that ignoring the girl you are with/ blowing her off/ not calling her/ returning her calls is the cowardly way out and he needs to be a man and confess his true feelings. People much rather hear the truth, even if it hurts, than draw their own conclusions and brand jerky guys as assholes. Once you are an asshole, there really isnt going back. I told him dont become "the asshole" and for the next time around, if this is a girl you like, let her know about your past shitty relationship that scared you, and tell her you are afraid. She'll understand, I'm sure. And take it day by day...dont be "committed" to that person ...just be "committed" to them for that hour or that day...and if it doesnt work out that day or the next...then you know that its not going to work out in the long run. Its a much easier way to live you life without all this assumption and fear. He confided in me and told me that he really hasnt talked to anybody about this issue of his, other than to himself...and i said, "as a friend, if thats what you want, then I could help you with this issue (i dont know how...but i'm willing to try.") Heh, Tessa doesnt think i should have given him the offer of effort ..but oh well...we'll see. If he isnt going to call me and be my friend, then its his fucking loss. Believe me I'm not going to be waiting around the phone in this round.
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[19 Aug 2004|02:43am] |
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well, tonight was interesting. Nick was a no-call all night long; which in a way, i was kind of relieved because i had already made plans but in the back of my mind, i wish he kind of had, but meh, i would have probably gotten in a bad mood when i really didnt want to be. I think i've come to the realization that when i do have a talk with him, whenever this may be, that i think i'm going to discontinue our raunchy behavior and just go back to being friends, if thats at all possible. I feel that if i'm struggling so much so early in this "relationship," than it probably wont work out in the end; so therefore i'm wasting my time (our time.) So yea, i think if he can convince me otherwise, than its pretty much over. I think that maybe i wanted to jump back in to this thing for a second time because a) i wanted that second chance b) i wanted the reasons why he was and why he acting the way he was before and c) that i wanted some lovin' (heh). Well the chase is over and i feel like i've gotten all the closure i need, so prehaps its time to move on. If these are the last words of that, than goodbye nick, i hope you have a good life.
Well anyway, enough about him, so lets get back to tonight. So, Niki and Josh come down to visit me today, and we hang out, go to lunch, shop in Carytown, see "Dodgeball" at the Byrd (hilarious btw) and then we go out to short pump to a pool party at one of josh's friends' Romon's friend's house (yeah thats quite a string of people, heh.) It was pretty fun i thought; i met some people that live in Richmond that know some of the same people i know. This one guy in particular, Ben, heh, absolute sweetheart and totally has the hots for me was talking to me all night and ended up giving me a drive home. Niki was like, "now this is the guy you should be with, not Nick; he's a loser" hehehe. I gave him my number, yeah, and he'll probably call me. we'll see where this goes...hehehe....hes so different from any other guy...i mean, right off the bat, five minutes after i met him, he complimented me on my earrings and later asked me if my toes were painted, and what color. He was so interested in me and what i had to say, it was overwhelming. I've never really had that, i dont think. He was so nervous in the car ride, i could tell; he even opened my door for me, when i first got in the car (hehehe); yeah he's quite a gentleman. ahh sigh...
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wow i haven't written in this thing for over a year now; that's fuckin unbelievable. But anyway, i write on this night in frustration over a particular person, and you'd never guess who it was ...or rather who i'm "seeing" again. ....yeah if you guessed nick, you guessed correctly. I am allowing him, heh, rather myself, or maybe a few months ago i would say that he is allowing ME a second chance. Hah, fuck if its HE that deserves anything (which he has admitted that he doesnt deserve me for the way he treated me.) i thought things would be different this time around...he has admitted his faults and apologized and promised that it'd be better. but tonight, i can for-see that we'd have problems down the road. As much as he might claim that he makes time for me; he doesnt. Yeah, we've been hanging out and spending the night together on some occassions, but those times that we've "hung" out have never been one on one...theres always been one or more people involved with the "hanging out." And when there is that one on one time; its been "one on one"..heh, i mean he makes time for sex, but not much else. I can't base this "relationship" (if it truly is one) on just sex. I dont want that; and i cant communicate that to him EVER because he wont give me that appropriate time and place, where it is just us, to do that. I just wish that we could, or rather I could be a VOiCE in this thing. Lately its been "hey come meet ME at work"; "hey I want to go back to MY place"; "ME, ME, ME, I, I, I"...theres not really, a "hey what would you like to do?" other than "i'm leaving, you have the choice of staying here or going with me (usually at his house.) I just want to go on a date like you said that we would....I want to have that picnic in Maymount and see the meteor showers on the lake. Why wont you give that to me? (at least)
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[11 Aug 2003|12:33am] |
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wow, there is so so much friggin updating to do, where shall i begin?
Hmm, well July 25-August 2nd i was at the beach in Duck, North Carolina [the outer banks] with my family [dad, step-mom, and, brothers]. It was pretty fun, despite some things, i.e the water temperature.
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heh, maybe i should go back to sunday night and then proceed to the present day...
well sunday, i had planned on seeing carlos at some point that night; but unfortunately, scratch that.. FORTUNATELY i didn’t see him. I called his house a few times..once around 5, then 6, then 8...no answer, i was thinking to myself "where the hell is he?" [we had agreed to do something tonight.] Well whatever...i quickly moved on and made other plans. I went to Cincinnati around 5:15 to a)report back to alissa her working schedule while she was at the beach, b) see darryl on his last day of work, and c)look at my schedule as well. I ended up eating dinner there while hanging out with Amanda, Darryl, and Keith. Keith put it into my head that it'd make a dull night of working a little more interesting if i brought over a bottle of rum. So i did just that; i went back home, got my Captain Morgan's and we took turns sitting outside drinking rum and coke out our Styrofoam cups. When it got later in the night we took shots and finished the bottle. I had quite a few, let me tell you ;D. By 11 pm, I was pretty toasted but i tried to appear as straight as possible. [Well heh, i don’t think jumping on Darryl for piggyback rides would classify as "trying to not appear drunk."] Well when it got to be around 1 am, Darryl and I decided it was time to go and he ended up walking me home. He's such a sweetheart, I'm going to miss him so much. Before we parted our ways one of the last things he said was "wow, this has been really great, i didn’t think I’d be hanging out and working with you and alissa this summer. I'm so glad it worked out this way." me too Darryl, me too. <3
Well on to Monday...
heh, i didn’t have a hangover but i did pass out on the couch. I woke up like 3 times to drink water, i was so dehydrated. My mom woke me up slightly by walking in and out of the living room while she was getting ready for work. I moved into my room and plopped on my bed while my brother was on the other. I was wide awake at 9 am...but i forced myself to go back to sleep; i woke up next at 12:30. I wasted the day away by watching TV until 3:30, then i got ready for work. Work sucked because i was in a bad mood due to everything seeming like it was going wrong. I burned my hands like 4 times on HOT plates and i dropped my first plate while taking it back to the dishwasher. Luckily only my co-workers saw me do it. I so wanted a drink by the end of that night. [which i did get...a long island ice tea, thanks to Keith. Holy shit that was GOOD.] It was rather busy for a Monday night so i got decent tips, which was the only plus side to my disaterous day.
Tuesday...
Work was better, but it was slow as crap...i only made $30 at lunch :-/ Well when i got home and i called Alissa [she just got back from the beach and whoa she is TAN] and we wanted to try and hand out with Darryl before he officially moved to Maryland. But unfortunately he wasn’t home when we decided on something to do...plan #1 was to go to the hookah bar ...but then livia invited us over to her house to smoke her hookah for free :D..hehehehe. So that’s what we did...except she broke her hookah just before we got there [DAMN!] Oh well i had my vodka to substitute. Arjun, Chris Reilly, Amy, and Erin came over to chill with us too. Man so many laughs came out of me that night as we sat outside around the patio table surrounded by tiki and tea candles. Around 11 we all parted ways and Alissa and I were hungry so we went to Silver Diner. I had like 4 or 5 shots and a Smirnoff Ice...so i was drunk. Hehehehe...silver diner rocks when your drunk. Heh, Alissa and I had the giggles and I would shout "Julio" at random times [he was our last sucky waiter] when i saw him. Fortunately he didn’t hear me...or maybe he pretended not to. LOL....my stomach is sore from all the laughter that went on last night. Naturally when i got home, i went on the computer..and IMed people. Heh, sorry to all of you who could not understand what i was typing.
Tuesday [today]...i worked from 11 until 6 and i was tired and in a bad mood. I think I feel inadequate the following day after i drink. The first few tables i got this afternoon must have thought i was a stumbling idiot. I was not my usual "chipper, everything is Fine, fine, fine" self to my customers. It was a lot more busy this afternoon compared to yesterday; but i made shitty tips, thanks to cheap ass bastards who pay 10-15%. Ok, i didn’t suck at all, there was the occasional stumbling on the specials we had, but that was it. Oh well, what can you do, cheap people are cheap people ::sigh::
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If I were a stone, I would be: a river pebble, all smoothed out and rounded
If I were a tree, I would be: a skinny, white birch tree that blooms yellow leaves in the fall
If I were a bird, I would be: a penguin
If I were a machine, I would be: a CD player…actually hell, I’d be a computer…to download and play music with
If I were a tool, I would be: a screwdriver [handy for stealing signs]
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a honeysuckle, they smell and taste so good
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a clear and sunny, 70 degree, fall day
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: medusa...heh and I don’t know why
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a guitar
If I were an animal, I would be: a cat, meow!
If I were a color, I would be: damn there are so many colors i adore...uh i'll go with olive green
If I were a mood, I would be: giggly, it’s my favorite mood to be in
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a cucumber
If I were a sound, I would be: the howling guitar riffs played by robert plant or jimi hendrix
If I were an Element, I would be: cobalt
If I were a car, I would be: a 1967 Ford Mustang "Shelby" GT 350, in royal blue with two white stripes running along the top front to the top, back of the car
If I were a song, I would be: "passenger" by deftones
If I were a movie, I would be: office space or the red violin
If I were a food, I would be: chicken tenders hehehehe yes, its random but I love them
If I were a place, I would be: that secret hiding spot in your house or wherever else; where one could escape the world for a short period of time and do whatever they want. Ideally I’d be that little storage spot underneath the stairs, that usually only kids know about and I’d be decorated with tapestries to hide the old wood and cushioned with an assortment of pillows.
If I were a material, I would be: the soft cotton of an old, worn out t-shirt
If I were a taste, I would be: something sweet like butterscotch
If I were a scent, I would be: moonlight path [my signature scent] or sweet vanilla or…ooo the scent of burning wood
If I were a religion, I would be: whatever you choose to believe in
If I were a word, I would be: audacity [i love that word]…even though, most of the time its something I lack
If I were an object, I would be: my art journal, it encompasses all the memories i save into art
If I were a body part I would be: the fingers, the tool we use for our greatest sense, touch
If I were a facial expression I would be: ;D [a winking grin]
If I were a subject in school I would be: art
If I were a cartoon character I would be: snoopy, he’s just the coolest
If I were a shape I would be: a star
If I were a number I would be: 4
If I were a month I would be: october
If I were a day of the week I would be: wednesday
If I were a time of day I would be: 9 pm
if I were a planet I would be: saturn
If I were a direction I would be: west, so the sun will always set on me
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a bed…the best activities go on in it …sleep, duh ;D
If I were a sin I would be: lust ;D
If I were a liquid I would be: water...heh i'm so abundant, yay!
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wow i always wanted to write n entery drunk...hahahha........it wa s abiotch ,ogging in thoughh
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B A S I C Q U E S T I O N S
[my name is]: Stephanie
[in the morning i am]: sleeping, usually ..or at work
[all i need]: is a massage and a long island ice tea right now ;D
[love is]: what you make of it
[if i could see one person right now]: it'd be darryl before he moves away to maryland
[im afraid of]: not being alone, but never having been in love with someone; I dont want to leave this world without experiencing that.
[i dream about]: weird things
H A V E Y O U E V E R
[pictured your crush naked]: sure
[actually seen ur crush naked?]: yep
[been in love]: not yet
[cried when someone died]: um, i think, but i'm not sure it was a long time ago
[drank alcohol]: yes
T H I S O R T H A T
[coke or pepsi]: coke
[flowers or candy]: candy
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean shaven!...scuff is cute but not fun when you are kissing
[tall or short]: tall
W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X
[what do you notice first?]: the eyes..or smile
[what qualities do you want in your special someone?]: a good sense of humor; makes me laugh all the time
[worst things to say]: "gorda" (which is chubby or fat in spanish)... no carlos hasnt called me that, but it would suck if he did. But basically anything that makes a girl self concious about her body is a huge no-no.
W H O
[makes u laugh the most?]: darryl mcmurray
[makes you smile]: carlos
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: carlos
[has a crush on you?]: heh, carlos
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: hmm...depends on the topic, but i say either.
D O Y O U E V E R
[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I. M. you?]: heh, i have ;D
[saved AOL/aim conversations]: mhmm
[cried because of someone saying something to you]: uh, yeah of course...if it was hurtful.
H A V E Y O U E V E R
[fallen for your best friend]: yes
[been rejected]: god yes
[rejected someone]: sure
[been cheated on]: nope
[done something u regret]: yeah...well hmm, i suppose
W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N
[u talked to]: my mom
[hugged]: hmm, i think vic...or maybe my grandma [hehehe it was her birthday today]
[u instant messaged]: ivy
[u laughed with]: renzo
D O Y O U
[color ur hair]: yep
[ever get off the darn computer]: heh...sometimes
[habla espanol]: barely...but i really should learn
H A V E Y O U/ /D O Y O U/ /A R E Y O U
[obsessive]: i can be, but i'm usually not
[could u live without the computer?]: hell no
[how many peeps are on your buddy list?]: 198
[what's your favorite food?]: Hmm, thats a tough choice...maybe good sushi or oysters
[whats your favorite fruit?]: tough choice [again]...but i think i'll go with..clementines
[drink alcohol?]: like a fish ...hahahaha
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: sunsets
[what hurts the most?]: second degree burns on your hands from HOT, metal plates just taken out of the oven
[trust others way too easily?]: not really; i mean i am trusting of others, but not to where it borderlines stupidity. I have common sense, and i trust most people after i meet and get to know them a little bit.
F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S
[i want]: a man who can admire and love me for all my little quirks, for example...i'd love to hear the man i love say "i love you when you read your magazines backwards" or "i love your laugh, you have a great laugh" [i dunno if thats true, but i'd love to hear it if it was :D ]
[i wish]: that i could control time.
[i love]: waking up to a beautiful, sunny morning after i had a really interesting and fabulous dream
[i miss]: richmond and the beach
[i fear]: that i won't be able to go back to school next semester due to lack of housing
[i hear]: the humming of the computer and the faint noise of the tv in the living room
[i wonder]: how many licks DOES it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
[how do you know its love?]: you just do, i think. I dont really know what "love" is other than the kind of love for a friend or family member. I haven't fallen in love with that special someone in my life yet.
[i am]: me and you can accept me for who i am.
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[08 Jul 2003|10:05pm] |
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heh. well what happened today? well what didnt happen? i suppose the day really began at midnight, when niki picked me up at my house. I called her up at 11-ish to just say "hey" and she was like "girl, what are you doing tonight?" I replied "nothing, " so she said "hold on ..i'll be there in 20." Haha, okay...sure, why not. So niki arrived shortly after and we went back to Manassas to her ex-boyfriend, josh's former house where he was with two other friends, naturally getting stoned. They offered to me but i declined; i just wasn’t in the mood. We chilled there for a half hour, with the four of them doing all the talking, and as for me, i only spoke when they asked me a question. The whole time i was thinking how i could get niki to stop talking for a second and let me ask her if we could go visit Jason [who probably was right below us in the basement (where he lives).] but that didnt happen. Niki, josh, and i left in her car and headed to Mike's 24 hour diner at 1:40 am. That morning was the first time i met josh. He is actually pretty handsome and surprisingly intelligent for a stoned-out, loser criminal (if that was an oxymoron, i apologize...heh.)
during the car ride we listened to "two step" by dave matthews as josh chain smoked his Marlboro mediums out the window. The song was a favorite amongst us all and we all sang the parts we knew. when we got to Mike's we were seated in the very back and got the usual, coffee...(decaf this time, because i had to work at 10:30 am.) My appetite was back [my appetite was lost due to a very disturbing incident I viewed that night, but its way too disgusting to discuss], so i ordered chicken tenders and fries. Heh, they weren’t the best, but they tasted so damn good that night. Our conversation ranged from everything from cracker barrel (where niki works and where josh probably will work) to me starting to talk about carlos to drugs and then to the grateful dead. It was pretty interesting none-the-less. Everything, being an annoying man, josh, and the music he played in the jukebox distracted us from having a good conversation about one topic. So things kinda scattered. But meh, whatever.
We stayed until almost three and then took josh home. Niki and I ventured back to her house where we crashed on the couches for a good 4 hours before we had to get up again. [We continued to talk about our current status of our relationships for a good 30 and then passed the hell out.] 8:30, the alarm went off and we rolled off the couch and out the door. She took me home and it was about 9. I took a shower and took my time getting ready this morning. I went to work early and got all of the side work done before the other servers arrived. It felt like it was going to be a good day.
[well a good day at work, not necessarily at home, my mom was blaming me for a burn mark on her carpet, probably from a cig. She believes it was caused by one of my party members last weekend. So she’s pissed off. And to top it off, she’s pissed that i left without telling her where i went this morning. well i would have but she was asleep. meh whatever. i don’t know, she’s getting really angry at all the shit that’s been happening lately, almost to an extent where she’s like, "if you keep it up, I’m not paying for college anymore"...oh jesus christ mom.]
Well it was a better day, for the turnout of the lunch crowd. Lately its been really slow, today it was steady. I haven’t been making as good of tips, which sucks. I mean i almost always get 20% on my bills, its just the lack of tables that’s hurting me. Oh well, what can you do? Today was the first day i saw carlos since sunday...ahh sunday. [ow my legs still hurt, heh.] He was cute, as usual, but more so today. Anyway, i read my horoscope and it brightened my day, esp. the part about aries being compatible. But heh, the day started becoming disastrous...i went to get a pour a sprite into a cup out of the soda machine and the sprite would not stop spewing out...it began to overflow. i ran away and got help. hahahahaha...i let the profressionals …being my bosses fix the problem. Then later i brewed some ice tea...the fucking ice tea machine is the devil i swear...you can’t go a week without it overflowing for some reason. Well this time, the holes on the lid weren’t properly aligned with the drip flow valves...and ooops there goes the tea on the floor. What a fucking nightmare...well actually i've had worse, i shouldnt complain.
Well i got off work at 3 and had a 3:30 ortho appt. [what a fucking waste of time..i go there and wait a half an hour for the 5 minute appointment]. Ugh. So anyway, i get home around 4:20 and lounge until my mom gets home. She must kinda like me because she brought me sushi. I dont understand my mom sometimes, she has like split personalities.
So yeah thats basically my day thus far...i'm gonna go to bed soon because i'm beat.
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